Crossroads

Cycle 17 CD 1

Well I counted my cycles wrong since I actually had two in July, I'm actually on cycle 17 since going off BC, cycle 13 of very much TTC. I'm also up to the last test. All my blood work and scans came back fine, so now I get to have a hysterosalpingogram (HSG) an X-ray test that examines the inside of uterus and fallopian tubes by shooting a dye up my cervix.

I'm very nervous. This is it the last test. No matter the results it's not going to be good news. Either my tubes are fine and then we'll spend more $$ on IUI and cross our fingers. If that doesn't work then we have ”unexplained infertility” which, according to a couple articles I’ve read, can be where the eggs themselves are just wonky with a too hard shell, or the sperm look ok in the lab but do not preform well in the ”field,” or the egg does not interact well with the sperm or the female reproductive organs.

If my tubes are blocked or broken we're SOL. We don't have the $$$$ for IVF and won't be able to save enough while I'm still in my ''child bearing age''

So if we can't make babies we’re selling our ranch home with the finished basement and two extra bedrooms (the kids’ rooms) We’re moving to an apartment and saving lots of money to go on lavish vacations. We can plan weeks to spend with our nieces and nephews. We will be the best aunt and uncle ever! Then maybe when we’re 40 we’ll have enough saved for adoption and we can start that adventure full of hearbreak and red tape. :-/